Last week Mom and Bekah had a date at a coffee shop in Newport Beach....the sun, the Pacific Ocean, good company, good coffee, good conversations and good books!
Right now I'm on a date with my Soul. And we came and found this book. 🥰
Dropping Olivia off at the Ranch (she works as a groom 2-3 days a week) I received a call from my oldest daughter Hanna telling me she wasn't home and to come tomorrow.
Hanna was just discharged from the hospital recovering from a bad case of strep throat and I had planned on going over to bring her some of the beef stock I just made.
BEEF STOCK to me, is like Windex was for the father in the movie My Big Fat Greek Wedding. I swear it cures EVERYTHING.
My kids are careful to talk about their ailments around me because they know I will offer to make them a delicious cup of stock.
If the kitchen is full of kids they like to tease and make fun of me.
In my voice they will say, "Honey, all you need is a cup of stock and that congestion will be dried up in no time." "Honey you don't need protein powder, why waste your money on chemicals made in a lab when you can have food based protein and IT'S FREE!" "If you drink my bone stock you will never be sick!" "If you drink bone stock it will keep you looking youthful!" "Your arm is broken? drink this bone stock and rub some into the skin...it will be healed in no time!"
Well you know what....I tell them to shut up. 😜 They ALL KNOW when they are not feeling good they come to me for my stock or beans and rice or a salad 🥗.
So here I am sitting at Barnes and Noble drinking the crappiest latte I've had in a while. It's my fault. I ordered a latte with almond milk....instead of breve. But I'm gonna drink it because even though I can afford to spend another 10. on a coffee, I'm buying this novel which is 30. and I can afford that too! I guess I'm just quite frugal. Which is fine, sometimes. Often it gets in the way of me enjoying things that I should enjoy and I'm taking note of that for my future.
I often imagine me laying naked reading a book in a nest full of blankets. My library with floor to ceiling 📚. Books are off the shelfs and on the floor with pieces of scrap paper for markers; sentences and entire paragraphs underlined with ballpoint pens! Notes written throughout! This of course is a south facing library with floor to ceiling windows and LOTS OF 🪴.
I'm dreaming!
Do you dream sisters?
When we dream, when we talk about our dreams, when we FEEL our dreams, when we write and tear out pictures in magazines of our dreams.....we are bringing them into the physical realm.
Ohhhh how the great masters have taught us to BELIEVE FIRST and then you will receive. Jesus is my favorite master and how he showed over and over again to believe first.
Look at children! They BELIEVE, they BELIEVE, they BELIEVE! Jesus said we should have the faith of a child.
Lately I've not been listening to my podcasts or audio books so much. Instead I've been entertaining my Soul. I rise early and use the first hour to pleasure myself. 20 minutes reading a spiritual text....usually A Course In Miracles, 20 minutes of journaling....usually the affirmation from the Course for that day, and then 20 minutes of meditation.
I'm in a season of meditation where I am only going "deep and inward." If my thoughts go elsewhere I quickly recognize and then go back to where I meet my soul, or god, same thing.
I've noticed when my thoughts drift and I go back to my soul, several physical changes manifest. I moan a loud and long exhale, my hips move round or side to side and I am transported deeper than I was just a minute before.
What are you wanting Sister? What do you need? What do you long for? Where do you feel lacking?
My Sister, I know how that ache feels. I've searched to fill up my void. I've looked everywhere OUTSIDE of myself and I can tell you as well as probably almost every older woman on this planet. WE'VE NEVER FOUND WHAT WE WERE LOOKING FOR; until we decided to look WITHIN OURSELF.
I looked for God. I went to a temple and I
didn't find him there. Then I went to a church
and I didn't find him there. Then I went to a
mosque and I didn't find him there. Then I looked in my heart and there he was. Rumi
EXPERIENCE and TASTE and SEE this god, this Divine, this Great Mystery....it is WITHIN YOU.
Sit. Be still. Breath.
Let all go. Dive deep into nothingness. The deeper you dive, the freer you become and the more often you practice, the easier it is.
All of my soul SEES, HONORS and BOWS to your soul. That is NAMASTE. 🥰
(Unless you take my parking spot that you knew I was waiting for and then I might call you a bitch with my next breath. Just want to be honest. I do practice love, but sometimes I practice and exercise fucking bitch. And when that happens I regroup usually quickly because the pain of separation from love I cannot bear.)
You are doing SO MUCH BETTER than you think! 🥰🥰🥰